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Dear Care:
You are welcome and thank you (!!!) for your kind words.
You expressed “a deep sensation rooted” in you, a sensation of hate for the idea that your father abandoned you.
“I was a good student, and I can’t help but feel I could have been so much more than this in another career or field” –
– it is my understanding that growing up you worked very hard on being the best daughter in every way: “I’m a straight A student, my body is beautiful, and I love myself, I have never attended parties, I don’t drink, and I don’t smoke, I sing, dance, play instruments and I get along with everyone” (March 19, 2018).
The promise was that you will be rewarded for all your hard work by your parents and by society by leading a happy and exciting work and love life.
The betrayal is about that promised being broken: (1) Your father abandoned you, (2) Your mother needs you to support her, (3) No exciting and rewarding career life for you, (4) No romantic relationship for you.
“Everyone tells me how great I am, how smart pretty“, you wrote in March 2018. Fast forward, you wonder something like- what happened to that great, smart and pretty? Why did it not translate to a great life?
“Sometimes I feel like I am making it into a bigger deal than it is” – I think that the gap between the Promise (your hopes and dreams, your expectations) and the Reality of your life is what is very big. Did I understand correctly?
anita
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