You’re right Anita. She’s not doing well mentally. Depression, anxiety and past heartbreak. I could recognize that from the beginning but still I did my best to support her and love her. And yes, she’s confused.

I wouldn’t say I have hopes for us. At some point she might regret pushing me away but still, that doesn’t give me hope. She might never reach out for many reasons such as fear of rejection or time passed.

I was in such a good point in my life. I quit smoking 2 years ago and was feeling healthy and clean but now I started again and I lost some weight over the past few months. I feel so ashamed of myself because of that. I feel weak. I’m not blaming her for this. I’ll definitely have a hard time trusting any girl after experiencing this.