Dear TeaK,

No need to apologize. I know how life can be busy and one must prioritize. I appreciate you replying…

It took some time to find a mental health counselor. The insurance website is grossly outdated and it was trial and error seeking a counselor who was both in-network and accepting new patients. However, I finally found someone and have my first appointment this afternoon. I have learned so much about myself and have given myself a year here to just focus on myself and counseling. I am optimistic that I can FINALLY make some real, positive change–especially when it comes to forming emotional attachments and being vulnerable.

I too fully expected (and respected) my ex’s decision to no longer communicate; however, that only lasted a day or two. She texts nearly every day. She is extremely depressed and not sleeping, which I of course harbor guilt for. She is trying to be supportive of my efforts to seriously improve my mental health, but she is not working to do the same for herself. I am trying to remain supportive of her, but grow frustrated as I feel both responsible and helpless. I’ve pleaded with her to find a counselor, go to the gym, or try going to bed earlier, but it all falls on deaf ears.

I did sign up at a gym here and plan to start next week. I did find a “Circle of Friends” group on the Meetup website and will work to start socializing/making contacts soon.

I am very committed to making a real, substantial change in my mental health, and I do appreciate having the support of you and the TB community, Teak.

Ryan