Sometimes when I have been driving and I have remembered something from my past, the words just come in my mind: “I wish I was dead” but now I catch myself and change the message in my head to something like, “I wish I could hide” or something like that.

I did have genuine suicide thoughts many years ago – when I knew my marriage wasn’t going to work and then more years later after another relationship ended.  So glad I didn’t.  Life got better and my family would have been very hurt.  Besides, I’m sure there is purpose to my life even if I can’t always see it.