Hi helcat:

I think I just wanted a kinda normal relationship. I didn’t want to be in an open relationship any more and I didn’t think that I could have one with her after everything that happened. I sort of had normal relationships with the women I dated even thought I was lying to everyone. I know she was humiliated too. She is angry that she did all these sexual things because she thought that we had a future. I did too for a long time. I guess that I gave up on that dream we shared but couldn’t find a way to tell her. So I didn’t until it was too late.

I have been working on being vulnerable around others with my therapist cause I really never had been with people. I truth a lot of people but I never feel like I can be myself around them. My therapist thinks its how I was raised but I don’t know. I feel like my parents did a good job raising me.

David