Haha!

Well,  I think I am seeing now a pattern with my exes who are trying to come back: out of 4, 3 of them weren’t doing ok mentally and physically when we broke up. It was pretty tough for all of them. And every times they come back, turns out that their lives are better. I mean, I got that when we feel extremely down, we don’t want to be with someone because of a feeling shame, guilt or simply because we don’t have enough energy to share in a first place. But like.. my high school boyfriend is also trying to come back almost.. one decade later.. I am not saying that I am unforgettable, I genuinely think that we can replace everyone, starting by toxic individuals, and only the memories and the times spent together make people unique and unforgettable.

I don’t know, I might talk a bit more about this later. It’s 1:10am now here. But I really don’t think that what I did and said to them wasn’t enough to make them wanting to come back so long after.. And cmon, all of them know they made me suffer. Out of decency, I would personally never try to come back with someone I know had suffered because of me.

Honestly I don’t get why they all come back when they feel that their lives are better. Like rhe first ex I was talking in my other thread, he actually just sent me a message asking me if I wanted to go on a daytrip with him. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him that much engaged towards me than now.

I now understand which kind of patterns all of those guys are taking, the last one included. And it says also a lot about me lol. But the most important is that I finally got it and – fingers crossed – maybe it also means that I will finally stop picking up guys who will follow this specific pattern.