Hi Tee and Anita,

I hope you’re doing good, I am kind of stuck in the middle of the English countryside and my Internet isn’t the best. I will respond later when I’ll get a better connexion but I’d like to respond to the last Tee’s post quickly: you are pointing out one of the main reasons why I was questioning so much this entire story. He dropped out in February from uni, so basically they barely had one month and half of courses together. I am not exaggerating if I say that in April and May, I am pretty sure I spent more time with him than her. Not only during public gatherings but also during private parties. He never came to any events with her, public or private. His friends never met her (while I know his best friends and even his childhood friends). So far his schedule can easily be tracked over the past few months: he was either with the associations he is a board member, with his friends (we have a lot in common, even when I wasn’t part of some parties or events, I saw him popping in my friends stories on social medias..) or simply at his place with some of my friends (who obviously told me they were with him without me asking, I don’t think they really understood that I didn’t want to deal with him anymore lol). So far it’s easy to understand that he didn’t spend that much time with her. And I can make a fairly guess that they just spent/spend the night together (and not that many at least in April and May). I know he shut down many times in April and May (didn’t get out of his room for two weeks until end of April, two weeks and half in May he did the same pretty much) and I am pretty sure he is also kind of shut down this week.

When it comes to communications, I can also make a fairly guess that he doesn’t communicate much with her: again, they don’t seem to spend that much time physically together (after some reflexions based onto all the events we spent together and the events I know he was there but her, I am sure at 95% he sees/saw her once every week or two weeks most likely) and I saw that he is barely online on messenger for the past two weeks (messenger being his first and foremost way of communications with everyone, family included) meaning that he doesn’t bother opening and responding to his messages). Since I am sure they aren’t together physically, it reminds me something he told me: for him being emotiobally engaged with someone goes through COMMUNICATION and PHYSICAL MOMENTS. I quote unquote « spending time and regularily talking is for me how you know you are committed to someone (…) ».

Which led me to think: if he can’t bother communicating regularily, if he spends more time with his friends (and me lol) than with her.. who was he really trying to fool? I had some theoried here. And if I am correct, then I really complain that poor girl. Because (and I emphasis that I am NOT comparing her to me) she is 20, she comes from a different town, she doesn’t have friends here, she doesn’t have romantic experiences, she is not popular among the masculine population. I remember once when they were supposed to be at the beginning of their relations, my friends told me that during an event she was looking all over the place to find him, yet she didn’t find him because he left the event without noticing her. He would have never done that with me, actually he would have waited for me to show up and to meet me before leaving.

Also I think it speaks a lot when he said that he was willing to follow me in Asia while with her he couldn’t think of going through summer with her.

I’ll keep writing later but I think you’ll see my points here already and why I was so mad and questioning so much everything