Dear anita,

a person with a strong heart is way more capable to lead (oneself and other people) than a person with a weak heart who can draw and play badminton well. The stronger your heart, the more it will naturally show on your face and body: it will show in the expressions of your face, in the way you look at people, in the sound of your voice, in the words you use, in the posture of your body, and in the ways you move your body. It would be nothing that you will be faking, it will be the natural consequences of having a strong heart.

Yes you are right, i can feel that i’m getting a stronger heart in myself….. I start to enjoy communicating, learning new things, realize that time is important, how my brain works,

How i wish that i can have this version of myself 5 years ago….. I’m sure things would have been totally different, and maybe i’d take different choices which might end up me being happier than now…..

I was a very very insecure person in that period, i always prefer to be in my comfort zone….

I really struggle communicating in uni, if i have this version of me…. I’m sure i’ll be more proactive in uni, connect with more people, make new friends, gain more exciting experience….

Because i feel that uni is the last period where we can approach people easily…..

But then i remember your words in the previous thread:

“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference”.

Since my high school days, i’ve always wanted most of the scenarios and fantasy’s in my brain to happen in my life, but none of it happen……

My uni life isnt fun as i was expecting, i didnt get a girlfriend, and my life now is very monotone…… I guess we shouldn’t expect too much in life…. I’ll only cause heartbreak…… As painful as it is, i’ll still keep striving for a better tomorrow….