I’m trying, and working on my relationships. But it only gets worse I think. Maybe.

People are just not happy with me prioritizing myself. I’m not sure what kind of a circle I do have including my family members. I am now taking care of my father when my stepmom is with her own mom, taking care of her. I’ll then go to my mom, stay there for a few days and then I’ll be back to my sister’s house to take care for the cats while she is at another city going to a concert. I will be exhausted after these days and then I’ll be back to work after making everyone happy. A friend of mine wanted to come stay at my house with his sister afterwards but I rejected since I would wanna stay alone or see my boyfriend since I’ll be missing him then. Now, he doesn’t talk to me because I prioritized my boyfriend and told my friend that. He is probably upset because there is no-one special in his own life. Kind of annoying, cause I do my best for people but when I finally try to learn to prioritize my own needs, this is what I see.

I am terrified of going to work at a different country because of what might happen with my relationship. But there is this opportunity and if it happens even next month, I’ll have to take this. I’ll have to go. I’ll try to go on with the long distance relationship if my boyfriend would also be persuaded but he did tell me he didn’t believe these types of stuff. But we’ll see, nothing else I can do. I can only wait and see what will happen.