I feel scared that If i don’t get out of this i will be left lonely forever.My father used to say earlier too that I’ll end up in divorce because I have high standards.he says things like I don’t deserve anything in life.i tried to help my parents again and again by trying to make them understand that issues they are fighting for are not worth it but they don’t understand.

Even they agreed to what I said but then did the same thing. I have given up on them now. I consider myself very empathetic person but it now feels like curse to me. I used to see love everywhere around me. In the animals flowers but now love scares me. Or maybe I force myself to resist it and not to feel it.