I didn’t say about suicide and stuff to any of them…..I am home with my parents trying to be calm ..I didn’t text him as well.

Yes there was no practical plan to it.The heart wants what it wants.One more thought that troubles me is we know we had a good connection..he used to say he’ll never have that again with anyone …I even if it never happens can tell myself the other person didn’t have the courage to fight for it and he made peace with it.Will he always be at peace with this decision? Sometimes we realise things much later and then regret that things could have been different.I don’t know if he’s gonna be loved like that understood like that or what….scares me for myself too..and then seeing him with someone else will also be very hard for me.

So what the circumstances are these they can change…plan was not running away and getting married it was to wait and win over our parents hearts. Yus they said harsh things they don’t understand this but i know them….it would have been a tough fight but there was a big chance that in the end they would have agreed…..He says your parent’s respect in the society … Society .. people just talk about things for a month and move on with their life..parents will be angry for a year or two but then things will settle down and we’ll be together for a lifetime..which to me was worth it.I sometimes feel he will realise this at 32 and things will be very different then..i would have moved on and he’ll maybe live with this regret (only if he doesn’t find someone much better than me)