Dear Sushmita:

“I didn’t say about suicide and stuff to any of them”- I thought you did because you wrote earlier: “My father even says that he’ll rather burn me if I die by suicide than consider this guy”. I don’t understand why he would bring up you dying from suicide unless you brought it up first.

“I am home with my parents trying to be calm“- please do your very best to remain calm.

“He used to say he’ll never have that again with anyone”- let’s say that he absolutely meant what he said, that he couldn’t imagine every feeling this connection with any woman other than you; still,  those were moments-in-time when he felt it and said it, moments that are now in the past. Also, it is true that he will never have the exact connection that he had with you, not with other women and not even with you, as nothing stays exactly the same.

“Will he always be at peace with this decision? Sometimes we realise things much later and then regret that things could have been different”- maybe he will regret; maybe he is/ will be too busy with life to think about past, regrets or peace.

“scares me for myself too.. and then seeing him with someone else will also be very hard for me”- maybe it will help if you bring the image of him with another woman to your mind and take a few breaths as you  hold the image for a moment.

“plan was not running away and getting married it was to wait and win over our parents hearts… there was a big chance that in the end they would have agreed… and we’ll be together for a lifetime”- this is optimism on your part and maybe wishful thinking. I mean, you didn’t describe much of a heart in regard to any of your parents, not in regard to each other and not in regard to you, sadly.

anita