Dear anita,

– you prefer (1) girls who do not act like they are desperate for attention, girls who are calmer when it comes to seeking attention, (2) girls who are honest: when they say that they are not ready for a relationship=> they don’t seek the attention of guys. What they say (their words) and what they do (their actions) needs to fit.

Did I understand correctly?

– it wasn’t really a mistake to like her, because liking someone (or something) is not a matter of rational choosing. It’s a feeling.

= Yes, something like that…. Although i can say that most girls i know are also attention seekers… but i only felt so much anger when i saw this girl acted that way….

And yeah i think it’s due to that her words are different from what she posted on her instagram stories…. Like she’s really enjoying her life now…. The last time she told me that she’ll be unhappy living with her aunt when she enters uni…. But look at her now, it’s so different from what she said….

What i meant by mistake on liking her is because i’ve wasted some of my uni days to interact with her whereas my uni days are done now… because uni days are the best period to enjoy and meet new people…. On my stage right now (working), it’s a bit more monotone unlike uni days.
And she’s at that uni days stage now… i just cant accept that she’s enjoying her best time of her life after rejecting me….

It’s like i invest my stage of life wrongly…. Idk if this is some kind of karma i’m experiencing…

I’m trying my best right now to make my daily life enjoyable by going to the gym and etc, but it still wont be able to surpass her uni days enjoyment….

Please take your time, Eric, reading, re-reading and reflecting on the quotes above, and then let me know what you think.

= I just read all of those tips once, gonna re-read it again and tell you what i think…..