Dear aVoid:

“Sometimes I feel ashamed of myself because there are accomplishments that I want to achieve and I feel mentally weak to complete them. So I guess I get in a dark place when I realize this… Every night I spend too much time with racing thoughts about everything that I cannot sleep. My mind is just too active… I am going on a 2 week vacation tomorrow”-

– here is what I suggest regarding your 2-week vacation and for the entirety of the two weeks: lose any and all motivation to accomplish anything that in the past you wanted to achieve. Allow yourself to be mentally weak. Imagine that this vacation is the rest of your life, that nothing happens after.

anita