I’m glad that you felt nice, I hope you feel even nicer these days.

Got a bit anxious 5 days ago, and I did some yoga and breathing exercises to calm myself. It helped but what did help me more was a fortune teller lady. I went to her cafe, got a coffee and she just read the coffee. I don’t know how but it was weirdly good. My anxiety was so much better after that. She told me so many good stuff about what might happen in my life and soothed my worries about the relationship. Since I’ll be now sending passports and stuff for work permit to another country, and I couldn’t even told him that, I feel a bit worried. I’ll see what happens but I feel worried every time a communication happens around that. Lady from the migration agency sent me a mail the other day, just a casual email. I felt terrible. I couldn’t calm myself for a bit.

On top of that, he went to his home-city, and I went to my mom’s home. Now we’re away again, it’s like we’re rehearsing what might happen in the following months. He got emotional when I was taking the metro before our busses, the last time we saw each other. I wasn’t that bad since I didn’t have a chance to feel emotional because of my stuffed stomach. Maybe that’s a solution, having a stuffed stomach when you’re worried. That’s probably how emotional eating is formed. It’s okay, I wouldn’t take that road.