anita,

eventually they just needed time to heal past my disappointment. they weren’t cruel to me in any way, i think they were just upset. it wouldn’t take long, sometimes hours and at most a day or two, and they would always remind me that they loved me at the end of every argument or circumstance.

one thing i will say though is that it doesn’t sit well with me when other people are upset with me. i don’t like to feel confrontation unless i know i’m absolutely right or at least feel that way.

regarding the ache, it’s true i do feel very low because i feel like i disappointed my partner and violated my own moral code. i thought i never would’ve done something like this and yet i did. this makes me feel very ashamed.