All i want to say is after so much has happened in the past few months … I still couldn’t unlove him. I still couldn’t give me strong reasons why I should give up on him.If i have him in my heart and i Marry someone else someday it will be injustice to the other person as well.

I have so many examples here at my place ..one of my mother’s cousin (46) she is .. her father did not let her marry the man she wanted to. later she denied marrying anyone else. The guy got married has kids and living in his life. She on the other hand lives in one room in her parents house. Her father beats her to death sometimes as she abuses and does mad things. Sometimes drugs. Her father did not let her work too in the fear of her eloping.

Second was one of my mother’s friend same thing happened with her but she is working has not married anyone else.They guy in this case too has kids nd is married to someone else.

Third was one of my known aunt whose marriage was almost fixed .the marriage was inter religion.due to her family the marriage couldn’t happen and got cancelled at the end time.The guy got married to someone else has kids and she on the other hand decided to not get married again.Now she has house of her own ,is working and living her life like that.

It’s not that there aren’t good guys. It’s that i don’t want to give myself to anyone.Especially when love is arranged.You are forced to get married. Then give birth to 2 children. Then a lifetime of responsibilities all for what? a compromise, fear of loneliness or what.The heart wants what it wants. If they didn’t agree to meet the one I wanted them to meet why i should meet the one’s they want me to meet.