Dear Stargaz317:

You are welcome. Seems to me that it is very important that you make an appointment with your therapist and talk to her about what happened.

“I’ve been seeing a therapist weekly for around a year that has helped me tremendously. I have come so far and I’ve improved my self -awareness dramatically… I cancelled my appointment last week with her because I was too ashamed to tell her what I had done“-

– Your therapist thought highly of you (thinking that you improved a lot and that you are self-aware) , and you were afraid that if you told her about the ache, she will not think highly of you anymore, that you will lose her esteem and appreciation of you, right?

Just like you hide things from your mother, things you believe will make her think less of you… and just like you don’t want your boyfriend to think less of you if he knew about the ache?

anita