You’re right. I will do that. I’m due to see her next Friday so I will think about how I will tell her. I know she isn’t there to judge me but deep down I think in my head she will.

When I think of that I think of it going one or two ways, especially with my mother. I’ve not got a close/good relationship with her and never have gone to her for help or advice. She loves my boyfriend a lot so I think she would be really disappointed in me and almost think how could you. Although the other half of me knows she’s had issues with her marriage over the years (I don’t know anything in great detail) so she would maybe say it was a mistake that’s never happened before and will never happen again and to forgive myself. I don’t know