Hi helcat,

Thanks for your response again.

Yes I think my parents whole marriage and my childhood is the reason I’ve had doubts about moving forward. I also think the idea that I’ve only been with him since 16 years old I was missing out on something (I now know after what’s happened that I am NOT missing out).

My parents divorce is as dramatic as it sounds.. ruining my life at the moment. It’s really difficult and I’m looking after my younger sisters. Hopefully as time goes on things will improve.

I feel like I don’t deserve the support from him after what I’ve done to him. I really feel like I’ve ruined our perfect relationship 🙁 I’m scared of I tell him I’ll really ruin what we have