Dear Shookie:

You have a great record as far as the smiles on my face: again, first smile of the day is owed to you, the smile grew bigger when  I had the image in my mind’s eye of your fur babies being so cute that you could eat them up. You are welcome, thank you for being you and for being my friend. Best to read: “I am learning to make myself happy and it feels great“!

Happy belated birthday to you. I cringed a bit when I read that he was around on the day of your birthday but did not visit you,  and that he spent the week of your birthday with his ex out of town. I am curious about the gifts he picked for you, including the candle, which he says smells like him (that’s quite an intimate suggestion).

The text: “There is something about you that just fascinates me. I do not like being in control of everything.  You are exclusive, unpredictable, and outspoken but soft, emotional, smart, and sophisticated. Maybe it’s the balance with you, I don’t know. Done thinking about it for the day, I see you everywhere. Going to bed and will talk tomorrow.”…he is right, this is a unique, fascinating combination: outspoken and soft, unpredictable and sophisticated… wild and tamed, all in one woman.

THEN WHY IS HE NOT WITH THE WOMAN HE IS  FASCINATES WITH?

“I see you everywhere“- meaning .. he doesn’t have to see you in-person because he sees you otherwise, in his mind’s eye, thinking about you… Imagine he moved out of his home and said to his ex and grown kids: you don’t need me living with you in the house because you live with me in that distance between my ears… I see you everywhere.

“He also told me while we were talking he had an appointment next week with a psychotherapist to help him figure out why he feels so responsible to take care of his ex and kids while all he does is work“- he has no idea why? Reads like he has no clue. I suffered from guilt from an early age and I knew why all along. I didn’t know how to get rid of it.. but I knew why I felt so responsible (for my mother).

“I knew his first wife and the children. Long story, but good for another post“- another post will be fine and dandy. It is not raining here but it is getting chilly. Good to read from you first thing in the morning!

anita