Dear anita,

1. how did the first date come about, what happened and what was said during the first date?

= It went well, we went out to the cinema to watch movies and have dinner together that night… our conversation went well, and overall it was a good first date experience for me….

But idk why i feel exhausted after that date, maybe because i keep talking to her to make sure she doesnt stay quiet and feel awkward around me? I’m new to dating so im not quite sure

2. how did it happen that she is willing to  go out on a 2nd date: did you ask her to go on a 2nd date with you? Did you tell her what you want to happen on the 2nd date (ex. see a movie together)?

= We were talking about vegetarian food by texts, then i just casually ask her in a joking manner… if she’s willing to eat some of the unique vegetarian dishes… and she said she’s willing… then i told her should we eat this sunday? And she said sure….

3. what kinds of things did you write in those notes, and did she respond to the notes and to the gifts, if she did, how did she respond?

= i write “open me” in the upper side of the box, and also a “h+7 birthday” …. Her respond was good… my timing was correct i send that gift at night so she saw it when she went home after finishing her class in uni….. she said that i’m a person who’s full of ideas…

4. what do you feel about her not doing any effort (not initiating texts, not sending you a gift) does it make you feel angry at her?

= well she did ask me what kind of gift do i like… and i tell her some of the clues…. But the weird part is that i’m always the one initiating the texts….
I always initiate her in a unique way, such as “saying good morning in a different language”, or by sending her a funny video…. But it feels exhausting and i could ran out of ideas soon…. I also feel angry sometimes, as im the only one doing the effort… I also need to do my other tasks everyday, while thinking of ways to initiate a convo with her…. It became stressful…

Also there’s another problem…. I always hesitate when i feel like committing to a relationship, i like to text and go out with this girl…. But i feel that sooner or later i need to confess to her and commit to the relationship…. And i feel so much pressure in committing…. Like i dont know how her family will perceive me… will it be good or not?