Dear anita,

give her a compliment next time, tell her that you like  something about the way she looks (you can word a compliment ahead of time). When you compliment her, maintain eye contact and have a sincere smile on your face.

= okay i’ll try… but i still have a hard time maintaining eye contact without talking, like i’m too shy to stare at her….

And btw do u think relationships could disrupt my friendship with my friends?

Because as of today, i feel like friends are not permanent… like they could be “not on our side” anytime…. As suddenly they could be our new work/business competitor…. I just experienced this recently (well he’s not a close friend, but could be counted as a friend)…..

So next week i’m planning to ask that girl again for a date on thursday night, because she’s not available on monday-wednesday night…. Friday-sunday i went out of country for an event….

But then one of my friend who’ll attend the same event as me outside our country, wants to visit my city on thursday (he’s my uni friend)…. And that guy also has a uni friend in my city too, in which that person is also my close friend, but she wont attend the event outside our country on friday-sunday.

I’m really pissed off because why does he have to come to my city…. Now i have to meet him and ended up not having a date with that girl… he landed to my city on the evening, so he plans to have a dinner here… if i didnt eat with him and my friend… they would asked why couldnt i join… Well i can tell them some “excuses” but im also worried that if i date with that girl on that day, i could accidentally met them… as my city is small…. I’ll eventually met that guy outside my country on friday-sunday… that’s why i dont want to cancel my “date (still planning)” for him… but the other friend might be suspicious… as she’s really a social queen who wants to know everything….

If i dont date with that girl on thursday next week, that means i wont be meeting her at all next week…. I dont want this to disrupt our relationship… as i’m still on progress…. I dont want my progress to go waste, as it’s not easy….

If i’m not close to anyone, i’d be happy to join his dinner of thursday… but right now it’s different….