Hi Tee,

No my parents were always 100% sure that there was something physically wrong but because they doctors couldn’t figure out what they kept saying it’s was just a teenage girl trying to get attention. But my parents did treat me different than my sister, they didn’t have the recoursses to deal with two sick children and so I had to fight my own battles. I don’t really remember that much from my life I have been told stuff by other people. I do remember that whrn ever my sister or family member would hurt me they didn’t really want to deal with it, so they always told me to forget about it.

Like when I was ten I got a pet bird and when I told my grandmother she called me an animals abuser. I went home crying but was told to not think about it. Same with my sister, the didn’t defend me because they knew she would trow a rage fit and the didn’t have energy to deal with it. That makes you feel worthless. Like it’s okay for other people to hurt you, you are not worth protecting.

The seven days I just did although busy wasn’t really that bad. I have gotten a bit more sleep, I am not in pain any more i went out with some friends from work. I also think it helped that the girl (the one adding pressure on me before my yoga date with the cute guy) is working temp in another country until december. So there’s not the drama triangel at the moment, and it makes me feel more relaxed.