Hi Anita,

Thanks you so much for your kind words. It’s weird how it feels weird to me to recieve such empathy. Learning to receive compliments is still hard for me.

Yes, a non bouncy guy is way better for me. Me and tghe cute guy are too simalar in that way. And now looking back I can see a huge difference in when I was regulated I could accept his advances and read between the lines (his indirect approach to asking me to go to the pub) and when I was dysregulated when he was inddirect about the Turkish restaurant I really thought that he was trying to get rid of me. I did the same with the guy earlier this year, he was looking for work on his computer and I was on mine he then said if I wanted to go out and do other stuff I could do it. I imediately thought that he wanted me to leave so he could be alone, I went out for several hours got back and said do you need more time alone? (or something like that) and he was like noo that wasn’t what I meant! I just didn’t want you to be bored. So I have a tendency of jumping to conclusions always in a negative way.

I have heard about DBT but never tried it I’m gonna look into that and the mindfulness, the emotional dysregulation is definitly the hardest for me to control. I have never heard about SSRI’s so I need to look into that as well. People here have suggested CBD oil because it’s legal and doesn’t get you high but I didn’t try it. Anything that helps will be good!