Dear Joanna:

“I liked the feeling of coming home and warming up“- we expect a home to be a shelter from the cold, a place of safety and comfort.

“I once told my mother it gives me headache, listening to her vent. I used to wake up and night, can’t sleep and think of all this clutter she put in my head“- if your room is cluttered with other people’s things, things you don’t need or want… then you don’t have space for your own things, things that you do need and want. Similarly, when your head was cluttered with your mother’s words and emotions, there was no space in your head, aka mind.. for your own life; therefore, you lived mindlessly, without a mind, so to speak.

“listening to her vent..  gave me bad view on people in general. I had negative attitude because of this. It is nice to not having to hear it anymore“- same here. I am still dealing with her=my negative attitude though, still working on lessening it.

“Interestingly, she wanted me to vent too, she liked to listen and complain about some people who wronged me too. But it always ended with blowing it out of proportions. She was able to make a monster out of my school friend, whom I was ‘angry’ at because she bought the exact same jacket as me“- she enjoyed venting her anger at people, didn’t she..? And when she ran out of people in her own life to vent about, she borrowed people from your life.

“For me it is helpful being active, trying to be creative, not necessarily for the sake of art but just to create something, to engage in it… It was therapeutic“- when you create you are mindful. The more you practice Mindfulness, the less mindless you will be.

Mindfully Yours,

anita