Dear Farnaz:

“As I was living in my head… I didn’t care about who I’m spending  time with, as the title of my post (indicates), I was surrounded by bitter people and not nice ones and I didn’t care… because in my life, it was only me who could help me…that became a normal. But  you want to be around positive people who can at least keep your spirit up, I underestimated the role of others in my happiness or misery a lot, and I paid for it dearly“-

-in what ways did you dearly pay for underestimating the role of others (who were not your family members) in your happiness or misery?

In my adult life, I hoped that someone (particularly a man, I guess because it were men who approached me, not women) will save me from my mother somehow, someone to give me safety and an okay feeling, for a change. Did you have that hope, that dream?

anita