Hi Anita,

Yes, very much so. I feel a lot of grief in the fact that I don’t have a relationship with my sister any more. Going from putting my life and health aside to now only speaking together when we have to. Especially now i have a nephew, it really hurts most of the conversation goes through our parents and my mom was devasteted when i told her i am keeping my distance now.

I can definitly tell my brain works differently now I can’t do simple maths, or multitask the way I used to and my memory is really bad. It’s the new normal that i have had to accept.

Your right relationship with other people is healing. The guy I was with earlier this year did soo much good for me. And staying together at a hotel (instead of the hostel) was the first time in many years that i actually was able to get a decent nights sleep. It was amazing like my nervous system knew I was safe to sleep with him next to me.