Dear levi:

“I’m male, and I hate what puberty did to my body, I feel like I’m too big and tall, like the features I most enjoyed about my body have passed too soon… I regret never having a relationship with the same sex, or even at all when I was a preteen“- reads like you (26) suffered from body dysmorphia (a severe dissatisfaction with your physical body) since puberty.  When you were a preteen, you were okay with your smaller frame body, felt comfortable in it, but then puberty hit and… things got out of control. Is this how it felt?

In your late teens you were morbidly obese (emotional eating, I am guessing?). Since then, you lost a lot of weight, then gained much of it back, then lost some weight, and the result is that you have “hanging sheets of loose skin” that will remain when you are healthy weight, and you can’t afford a surgery to remove those.

Also, read like you are gay, but too body-dysmorphic to pursue a same-sex relationship. You shared that you’ve been gossiped about and called names by people in your neighborhood, in regard to your sexual orientation, if I understand correctly.

You also shared that you are living with your parents, “have never been able to hold a job“, now pursuing web development for the purpose of moving away from your parents and from the city and living “as far away from others as possible“.

Overall, reads to me that having a surgery to remove your access skin is of outmost importance to you: knowing body dysmorphia personally, I can’t imagine being able to significantly overcome it otherwise. If you continue to lose weight, arrive to healthy weight and then have the access skin removed surgically, that would be best for you.

How about fundraising via GoFundMe (see go fund me. com/ how it works)?  I imagine that lots of people who also suffer from body dysmorphia, particularly people in the lgbtq community, will be very empathetic and may want to support you in your struggles.,,?

anita