Dear levi:

You are welcome. I am sorry that you experienced abuse by a psychiatrist (and abuses and taunts by others!). I hope that you find a way to do the surgery, and crowdfunding may be the way.

In regard to your body dysmorphia, wishing you’d taken puberty blockers (when I read your original post, I thought to myself how puberty blockers, taken under the supervision of a doctor, of course, could have helped you), etc.- I am currently communicating with a transgender young man on the forums, and we’ve been discussing some topics that may be of interest to you. If you go to page 3 of list of topics, to the thread “Too Criticizing of Myself” by Janus, you can read parts of our very long communication (started in Dec 2015, when Janus was Shirley, before her social transitioning). We discussed body dysmorphia and lgbtq topics repeatedly and at length. If you go to page 92, ninth post from the top, you will find one of Janus’s lists of resources, some may be relevant to you.

If you choose to check out her thread, please let me know if it is of any help to you.

anita