Hi Tee,

I mean he was less awkward in the first two months, he was indicating that he wanted to spend time with me, but never actually asked. Like always asking me when i would finish work (same time as him) then he was about to ask something then he would stop himself. He did that a lot so i was always left wondering what he wanted to say. Once he sounded cocky, he was alone dealing with a huge group and it seemed like he was boosting a bit, later found out that he really can’t handle the groups it’s too much for him. He would talk to me but without actually saying anything. That changed the moment he asked me to go to the bar with him. I indicated that i liked spending time with him when i asked about him teaching me karate. When talking to other women he is using the same tone of voice and he can look them in the eye. When i told some of my colleagues about it they were surprised cuz they didn’t notice anything from my behaviour. I become very avoident to the people i am atracted to which i need to learn how to deal with. I know now that it’s not social anxiety but a fear of vulnerbility that triggers my anxiety, and a fear of rejection. I’m fine until it gets to close. Same happened with the good guy last year it was easy until he got too close then my defense mechamism can in and I had to force myself not to run away, it was really hard at first but then it be came the best thing.

He called them baby (part of his culture) but didn’t flirt with them. He used to call his x girlfriend princess. I wasn’t into him at first, i had my eye on another guy but he didn’t give me anything back so i didn’t think more of it. It wasn’t until they boys in the Kitchen told me that he kept talking about me all the time, they thought he was a little in love with me. Asking them if they thought he had a change and if scandinavian women prefer exotic men. He told them that one day he would take me out on a date, I also overhead some conversations where they were trying to get him around a lot of beautiful single women but he said no he had one women on his mind. Lot’s of stuff like that, but my colleagues (men) came to me that he liked me, and they were getting a little tired of hearing him taking about me.