Dear Contributers,

I have been suffering with the same issues as the people before me. It has been less than a year for me to really learn about the abhorent cruelty that animals have to suffer by the actions of human’s.

My cats have been my compassion connection & thanks to them I recognized that every animal is a unique individual and has wishes, fears & feelings. By supporting animal welfare organizations that help strays I naturally learned about industry farming, industry fishing & the uncountable horrors of hunting, fur farming, animal testing, pouching. Paired with the ongoing biodiversity loss & the 6th mass extinction, I cant help but despise humanity for destroying this planet & torturing helpless animals on a daily basis for consumption, entertainment, money. I have immense guilt for having contributed to this as a human and as a meat eater. Eventhough I started to advocate, donate & turned vegan, I cant stop having obsessive & suicidal thoughts as the suffering seems never ending & the animals beyond saving. My soul is broken & often feel like I have swallowed the Red Pill & like in the Movie the Matrix have come to know that there is an evil kind abusing sentient beings. But knowingly the majority participates. For months I have been daily reading News, watching documentaries & cant let go of this topic. I dont feel happiness anymore & I dont think I deserve it, for all the suffering I inflicted with my actions & because every moment there are millions of animals suffering.

BUT I have to thank to the writers before for writing about the little time we have had on this planet & that the earth will survive us.

I also understand now that I have been inflicting pain to myself as a punishment & by also feeling that I am doing something for the animals by gathering all the gruesome facts, instead of taking action.

I understand now that I wont help any kind with hatred & sadness in my heart & will try to heal by not getting so emotionally involved and becoming stronger, so that I can eventually put all this time & emotions into action instead of doomscrolling & paralyzing.