Hi Tee,

It’s been mental. It was a guest from the party that stabbed another guests from the sound of it. They won’t give a lot of details but police were there when my collegue came to work the next day. Those private events are not gonna be anymore they have had a lot of issues with them before. My manager got punched in the face but is okay given the circumstaces. We have had a lot of stuff happening before (we have more than 900 beds) someone overdosed last summer, people getting arrested for fights but I have been lucky that I wasn’t there when it happen (usually happens later in the night after I have left)

The cute guy is not one of them, but from the sound of it he and my collegue aren’t a thing anymore. Yes unfortunatly he is (the other guy) he’s mid 20s so a bit younger than me and he’s nearly walked out a couple of times because he won’t risk his mental health over it witch I completely understand. I hope that it will have consecvenses for the him, he’s always been like this and will never change (he has his own issues and mental health problemes)

Yes, exactly I’m gonna start working on that asap.

Yes. I still get a bit nervous around him, especially that day cuz he wasn’t on the work schedule so didn’t expect him to be there. But I’m glad that I managed to not give in to my anxiety and just stare at my phone.

I was just really surprised because I had no idea that he likes me that way. He said that he respects our friendship and understand if I don’t want to take it further but if I want to date him now or in the future to let him know. I have been aprehensive about it because we are friends and if it doesn’t work out you could potentialy loose a friend. At least with the cute guy there was a distance. But the thought of dating him has crossed my mind so we will see.

I haven’t been to therapy after being diagnosed. A couple of months after I moved abroad again and as much as I would love to start therapy it’s expensive and hard to find a good match. I did do some session about tapping to help ease my anxiety, craniosakral therapy and hypnotherapy for my sleep issues but hasn’t helped as much as I would have liked.