Hello Spriteflower,

I’m sorry that you grew up in an abusive home.  The abuser is the one who has the problem not his victim.  You don’t need to keep playing the victim.  The abuse has gone through all layers of your being and it needs to be removed.  I’m not a great believer in talking therapies that have no end.  I love Tee’s paragraph that says “When I found compassion for the little girl that I was, who was deprived of love, warmth and emotional support, my healing started.”  It’s not too late to send love to your inner child.  Do you have a photograph of yourself as a baby or young child.  If so, look at yourself and send love to the photograph, the image of who you used to be.  If not, you can still send love to yourself.  Give yourself all the kindness and warmth that you missed out on.  Do this every day.  It is a very powerful exercise which has amazing results.  Believe that this will bring about the changes that you so desire and it will.