Thank you so mucb Tee. Yes, when we are vulnerable, we feel isolated and feel so alone. It helps to know that such occurances are common. As of now, after Corona, it is a different phase for everyone. Got married again during Corona. I got divorced from my first wife within a month of this ‘Angelic guy’ coming to my house. He also gave reasons for my wife’s walking away saying God was ‘against’ me and he said it was actually Buddha who was speaking through him.

Anyway, yes, after Corona, like everyone else,suffered some losses in business. Had a kid 🙂

And tried a bit too hard to make some money, which again failed. So, I kind of mentally revived these ‘angels’. All that is the past. I have developed this instinct to keep coming to the present moment after I read Bodhidharma.

I began to exercise and I am noticing a few things like how an even balance with a bias on the heels leads to a reduction of negative thoughts. Even 40 seconds of squatting with more weight on the heels strengthens the ropy nerves on the back of the head. I guess when we cycle we tend to put pressure from the front part of the foot to press the pedal down and so we tend to neglect the heels.

I feel good I joined this community, thanks to people like you, it’s very reassuring. I read a lot of other topics also and I find people are willing to genuinely help. This makes my day and I am sure the beginning of many good days for many people. Thanks Tee.