hello maida
this sounds terrible. is there anything you can do? maybe you can try to carry your spirits with your remaining energy 
and what would be the kind of person that you wanted to know or appreciate? i hope you find a way… as humans we always seek for a solution… but maybe you cannot repair yourself… but healing and repairing aren’t the same either
kind regards 
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