Thank you Tee. I really appreciate your support here!

Yes, this relationship had a devastating impact on my self-esteem and even faith in humans. The ending was just disgusting to me…

As an empath, one really listens to your partner, is open to amend the behaviour so gaslighting makes one’s mind crazy. He would say I don’t give him space. But when we argued or I would voice my needs or concerns (I would state things calmly) he would shut down and normally either didn’t talk to me till I started a conversation or would just continue after some time as if nothing happened. So what could one do in such situation?

I’m a bit worried because next week I’ll be staying in the city where my best friend lives. Normally I always stayed in her place but as it seems she doesn’t want to host me I’m staying somewhere else. I’m a bit sad but also preoccupied how she will act when we meet. It’s just I don’t know how many disappointments I can take these days…I’m normally tougher but currently I feel vulnerable and broken.

I do listen and read resources about narcissism and toxic bonds. Than you for your recommendations.