Dear Dafne

Have you considered sperm donation that way you can become a mother without having to  wait find an obliging  partner.

I have had a desire to become a buddhist nun for nearly 15 years and had hoped to achieve that by my 50th birthday ( a decade ago) my Lama said I would have to wait until I retire which means I have got another 8 years to go, but in the meantime I live as an undercover plain clothed nun, ie I dont consume alcohol or have sexual/romantic relationships.

Looking after my dad is now the focus of my spiritual practice as I do not have the time/freedom for much formal practice.

So I guess it is more about making the most of our present situation.