Hi Stacy

That’s okay. You have a very busy life.

I’m sorry to hear that you’re unwell at the moment. I hope that you start to feel better soon. 🙏

I think that mental health can really suffer when we’re feeling unwell. It’s such a vulnerable position to be in and we still have the same desire to be taken care of as we did as children.

I’m glad that you’re reaching out for support here when you’re feeling really low.

It’s difficult having friends and family that can’t cope with the idea of being emotionally supportive when you are having a hard time. But you will always find a friendly ear here. It’s not the same as having that support in person, but we do what we can. ❤️

Please be gentle with yourself! It’s okay that you’re not ready to let go and block him yet. I’m sure that you will when you’re ready.

What happened wasn’t your fault Stacy. You were always respectful when communicating your boundaries. It’s simply an incompatibility issue.

I think that you have much better things coming on your horizon. You believe that you deserve good things and this gives you the courage to find and be open to them.

Imagine a relationship with the support and communication, but without the bs. I truly believe that you deserve that.

The hardest part may be that he was your only emotional support in life. Now that’s gone. Which is truly extremely painful.

Do you have any more thoughts about the denial stage of grief that you’re experiencing? I know you feel bad about it, but it’s healthy to process your emotions. Better out than in!

The difficulty is that you have been shamed a lot for expressing emotion. It’s okay to communicate your needs even when you’re upset. It might even be the most important time to do it.

Regarding your friends hurting you by not inviting you. It’s very understandable to feel left out. That’s rather insensitive to leave you out of plans then explicitly ask you to stay behind, to take care of things for them and expect you to bear their financial burden by taking time off. It’s very tone deaf.

Love and best wishes! ❤️ 🙏