I think last night and today I felt numb. But tonight is a different story.

I was working at my art gallery and I saw a couple that resembled how n and I were in a couple ways. The guy touched her back the way N touched mine. After seeing that it messed with my head and that was a couple hours ago, now I am home trying not to think of my lack of physical affection now and the potential of where is affection will go next 🙁

I wish I wasn’t having these feelings but I feel gross thinking of him with someone else and feel sad that I will not have someone touch me in a loving way for a while. A friend told me I had to be that for myself, but sadly I don’t quite know/remember how.

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