Dear Seaturtle:

I asked: “How many of these symptoms did you experience while living with N?”, and you answered: “All of them. I constantly had bad dreams… short capacity for concentration on anything other than our relationship, I felt anxious about him hurting my feelings (like being late or not understanding me), I felt depressed… My moods would swing… I would freeze up when trying to express myself, not because I don’t know how but because I would be repeating the same thing for the nth time and freeze to wonder how else I could phrase it so he would understand how something made me feel or why I thought a certain way…  I constantly felt ‘stuck’… “- N, a Chakra Blocker (CB)

“Similar to when I tried nicotine, the two N’s (lol) felt good for a minute but then they harmed my spirit, the essence of who I am. I have such a deep desire to hear my inner spirit guides and act in alignment with my highest self, that these N’s were a small price to pay to have such clarity within myself“- you mean quitting both N’s is a small price to pay for Chakra Opening (CO), right?

“This reminds me of… a phrase from a poem Megan wrote ‘I will always be in the love with the man you will never become,'”- so she will… never be in love with the man he is.

“She articulated so well that she has been in love with someone who was stuck at their lower vibrational self, but that she could see his potential, however she had to leave the relationship. I feel this way with N. His higher vibrational self would be a perfect match for mine, which is so heartbreaking”- almost everyone has potential for a higher vibrational self. Not just that man, not just N. It’s just that you happened to see it in N. But the potential may have a very low probability to materialize.

“I tried to raise his vibration, but instead mine was lowered”- relationships should be Win-Win, but it has been a Lose for you.

“Speaking with you on this platform has raised my vibrations, and therefore made me even more incompatible with N. wow I just realized this as I wrote it.”- Wow…! This is very special; it will take me time to absorb this…!

“The thing I want more than anything in my life right now is friends who are like me in this way, like you, but I need people in person. So far, I have been the one sharing my vibrations and insights with others, but I am ready to meet people who can raise my vibration and teach me”- reads good. By the way, I can imagine you and I meeting in real-life. I don’t want to mention locations (and please don’t mention such yourself), but I think that we’re geographically close.

* I will read the rest, and reply Mon morning.

anita