Good morning Anita,

“in a meditative/ calm state of mind, visualize a parent you wish you had, a Fantasy Mother or a Fantasy Father”

In my notebook I started writing to this prompt and I will type exactly how I wrote:

A calm parent, with an open mind. Someone who asked me questions about myself, and genuinely wanted to know me, as opposed to use what they knew to manipulate me.

Someone with grandma-like warm hugs, who I could trust to still be there, when I turned my head. A grandma who moved slowly, and spoke soft.

A Dad who was curious to watch me grow, rather than afraid of it. Who responded with interest rather than concern.

Both of these parents consistently treating eachother softly. More predictability.

Either of them asking me what I wanted.

A mom with advice on how to make friends. A strong confident woman who had self control, who knew what she liked and knew

how to get it.

A compassionate father, who wanted me to be me. Who wanted to know my friends and be involved.

An affectionate dad, with the  empathy to see when I was hurting. And certainly never try to cause hurt, and if by accident genuinely apologized.

A dad who let me win board games and told me I was awesome.

A mom who could help my dad see me.

Loving parents, towards eachother.

Reason behind the word “no.” Being treated like I was capable of understanding and maturity.

A dad asking me how I felt, and after I responded, saying it was valid.

A loyal and honest mom, calm and decisive. Her only priorities being her family and herself.

A dad who thought I was cool, funny, and strong. And a mom who was those things.

Seaturtle and hatch