Dear Seaturtle:

“suddenly, this N guy appears in my mind and It’s like I had a vision of ripping a green vine off a branch, as if it was premature, and not ready to be discarded, and I listened to that vision and decided to give N one more chance” (July 29, 2023)-

– suddenly, this N guy appeared in your mind, and it was like you had a vision of making wine out of sour grapes?

The sour grapes being F’s/N’s inability to connect with you positively and genuinely?

In the image, it was premature to give up on creating a positive, genuine connection with F by proxy of N (N as a substitute for F), so you decided to give F one more chance (by proxy of N), and you ended up with an unpleasant tasting wine…?

anita