This Is my first love and since meeting her I have been hooked that she was the love of my life. As I mentioned above I am going on a vacation with her in about a week and I will start to try and deal with my personal issues. If nothing changes with the way I feel about her, then I may have to break up. I just want to look back at our relationship and think to myself that at least I tried. Even though im hurting the memories. I have discovered one thing. Love is very difficult.