Hi Helcat,

thank you for your kind words. I guess I figured these things out out of necessity, because the other option would have been depression and despair, which wasn’t a sustainable solution. I guess it comes down to finding a small way I can help myself, even if the situation seems helpless. Like, finding a small niche in which I do have control over the situation, and one such niche is thinking differently about it. And it turns out it makes a difference on the physical outcome as well. Which is a blessing!

The pregnancy made my health issues worse and caused some backsliding with my mental health and emotional regulation.

I can imagine it is a big challenge. I’ve never given birth, and a part of it was that I didn’t feel capable of being a mother, neither physically nor emotionally/mentally. I felt it would have been too much for me to handle, since I could barely take care of myself, not to mention another human being. So yeah… I wouldn’t have been a good mother in that mental space.

Anyway, I admire you for having a baby and taking on the challenges of motherhood, but also enjoying your precious son and all the incredible moments as he grows and thrives <3

I am glad you are learning how to manage your stressors, either via relaxation techniques or a better physical posture. You are doing an amazing job, Helcat!