Dear Anita,

“– if you don’t disinvite her and suffer her presence during your birthday weekend (enduring her negative, on and on venting, etc.)), then you’d be a bad friend to you, wouldn’t you?”

“And you’d be losing you, wouldn’t you?”

-I want to be a good friend, I want that to be apart of who seaturtle is. So by giving up on her wouldn’t I be going against myself too? I need to learn when I need to let go of someone/something, but recently I gave up someone (you know who). And now I think I don’t want to do it again unless it is so so necessary. I do not want to lose me. I want to find me so that I know what I need to lose… I wonder if it can happen in that order..

 “you are afraid of being your true, assertive self, so you are hoping that she (P) will make the right choice for you.”

You are right. Instead I want to be assertive and kind, and I am going to attempt this. I want to honor my assertive true self.

Seaturtle