Dear Anita,

Thanks for your empathy and insights. I never paid much attention to guilt and shame so it was a new perspective for me. Thank you for believing that I don’t deserve to suffer, because sometimes I don’t. There are days when I think of just resigning to my obsessive intrusive thoughts because I see no hope. To be honest I still do not know how will I recover, but I understand that getting in depths of my thought patterns and emotions is very important. Can I send a detailed reply to your thread by tomorrow EOD? In the meantime, I have a question- Are these intrusive thoughts that I experience or flashbacks? Or a mix of both? I sometimes feel that I am spiraling because of the traumatic memories of that difficult time while sometimes it feels like a compulsion to trigger intrusive thinking.

Thanks,

Kshitij