Thanks, Anita, for your response. I accidentally hit “report” instead of “reply” first. I don’t know if that does anything. My apologies, if so.  I’m not even sure I am replying correctly, lol.

I’d say, yes, it’s just true in the moment for him. He said a lot of things, that I’ve even thought to myself in the past – he felt it at that moment. Because who walks away again and again after making commitment after commitment?  Embarrassingly, I admit, I kept going back to him. Believing him. Believing he loved me, wanted to spend his life with me. But he left me 3 times, bailing in commitments he made, leaving me worse off than the time before. Specifically, financially. Truly, over time, I became an emotional mess. I always felt something was off, sensed he was lying to me about things. But could never catch him in anything. Until the last breakup. He got caught in a lie, one that made zero sense to even lie about. Said it was the only time he lied, only to slip up the very next day about another lie he told. So he lied about lying. Two weeks later he dumped me (this was 2 years ago -my post). I had just taken another job, making less pay.  I had been looking because I was not happy at my current job. He was influential in this decision. It was fully remote, way better benefits and 401k. He said he’d supplement my income until we could buy a house together.  And he bailed, less than 2 months later, citing communication problems. My God, I’m rambling.  Why would I even want to see him ever again???