Hi all

She decided she wanted to break up

First thing she said, was how she appreciated the space i gave her, i memtioned about the thing i work on about my insecurity, she said we did have a direction but she doesnt have the feeling for lover for me, she doesnt like me anymore, thats what she finally said. She was too tired to try anymore. She wants her freedom and the feeling of not needing to bound with anyone.

she said she only decided a couple of days. I was very upset and I asked with the new information would make a difference. she said it might happen, but even if we need to start anything, we start from zero, which is she needs to break up first.

she didnt plan for the night, she expected me to just go home after talking in my house. i said i could not go back and wander around anymore

How my past month has taken a toll on me, she slept on the cough for the night and i slept in the end. she moved to a hotel from today on

Before she left, I was looking at the things around in the house, I burst into tears saying everything here has a memory of you, it is really tough on me. i hugged her and cried so hard

I am unsure how i feel now, i expected this but i guess it still hurts