Hi Anonymous

I’m sorry to hear that you had a rough day. It doesn’t undermine all of the hard work and progress that you have been making.

I’m glad that you are feeling hopeful about therapy when you go home.

Hmm well therapy for me was all about processing trauma. It isn’t necessarily an easy thing. The memories themselves are difficult. But the only way through pain is through it. And as you process each thing it hurts a little less.

There are ups and downs for sure. I relapsed after being raped and had another relapse after withdrawing from mental health medication and becoming severely ill. More recently I had a relapse after having a baby. Life has challenges and it can be difficult to manage these things with a history of trauma. But therapy gives you the tools to bounce back and find a way to get on track again.

I honestly thought I would be dead by the time I was 30. Instead I am alive and have a family. That is a beautiful thing.

Tommy is right about thoughts. It is easier said than done, but in time with practice you can get there.

The way that I think about suicidal thoughts is that there is a desire for the pain to stop. But there are other ways to help manage the pain. You are starting a healing journey to figure out other ways to help manage the pain.

Keep on expressing yourself and posting. Keep on communicating with your brother. Enjoy meditation, learning about Buddhism, your morning walks and listening to music.

Love and best wishes! ❤️🙏